Something to light up my life
what do you call it when you spend your hours and minutes…longing…waiting… yearning…
Holding your breath
waiting for something, but you don't know what. It seems like you've been waiting for IT your whole life, and at the ripe old age of nearly 70, you still have no idea what that treasured and elusive thing might be.
You know it is LOVE, because love is always the answer.
Is it to be loved by someone, who will love you the way you have loved others, purely, whole heartedly, intentionally?
Does that love come in human form? That’s not been your experience with most humans, they do not love wholeheartedly. Or unconditionally. They are only available at their own convenience, and only superficially. There is just no way to have a deep, meaningful conversation with anyone who needs to be right all the time.
They love the supply of whatever it is they require, that you provide. You know that the day you no longer provide what they need, in the way they need, which changes with the wind, they will replace you with a new ego supplier faster than celebrity gossip travels around the media. Good.
Perhaps it is you, who needs to fall in love again. Yes, we know you are love, blah blah blah, but you need to fall in love with someone or something to light up your life. What a great line for a song! Animal companions. Creatures who appreciate the attention and care you give them.
You need to be passionate about something.
You need to take that love and turn it into loving action that will uplift a piece of the world.
You've done one thing, devotedly, for your whole adult life, driven by necessity, much of the time. Now is the time to actually have your druthers, and use some of the hours in the day to help something or someone, which will light up your life
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